Day 14: Sex with Your Pants On...

I don't know if this is the 14 day slump or what but I am feeling stuck. The second week is over and I am just feeling so monotonous. According to the Whole30 timeline days 12-15 tend to be described as:

Days 12-15: Boundless energy! Now give me a damn Twinkie.

Hurray! The slump is over! Your pants fit again! Your energy levels are better than normal – you’re downright Tigger the bouncing tiger! But something weird is happening. You’re dreaming. Not crazy nightmare or strange surrealist dreams, either. Incredibly 

Fluffy gooey goodness

normal and realistic dreams – about donuts. Or Twinkies. Or Snickers.* In your mind, sometimes you get caught and feel guilty. Sometimes you just brazenly eat the contraband. But then, the feelings start following you into the waking hours. Suddenly, you’re craving things you don’t even like. (For me, it’s Diet Coke and Twinkies, for Melissa Hartwig, it was fast-food cheeseburgers!) Your co-workers’ heads transform into giant Girl Scout Cookies as you gaze on in disbelief. Seriously, you’ve almost hit the halfway mark, and now this?! All joking aside, though, this phase gets really intense and for some people. This is the part of the program where our minds try to drive us back to the comfort of the foods we used to know. Our food relationships are deeply rooted and strongly reinforced throughout the course of our lives and breaking through them is really big deal. Journaling can be especially enlightening and helpful during this phase, and helpful for reflection later. Take some time to jot down what you’re craving, how you’re feeling and what tools you’re using to work through the cravings.
 *The cravings people get, and the dreams they often have, rival those of pregnancy. One person told me they craved pickles and Doritos (together) during this phase! 

Okay - so my pants are fitting a little differently, and I am having a more steady energy pattern. But all in all I feel strong cravings. Mainly for one thing and one thing only - pizza. I don't know what it is but I love pizza. I never really thought I had an unhealthy relationship with pizza but I apparently do. I want to try to make a "healthy" version using cauliflower crust or coconut/almond flour. Buuuuut you can't do this on the Whole30. This is called having Sex With Your Pants On (SWYPO).

I want this...

Apparently cauliflower crust pizza is like a gateway drug for the real deal. And I get that, but it's hard. I feel like this unhealthy relationship I have with food, mainly salty hot greasy food, is something that may take longer than 30 days to "deal" with. Today has been a day of contemplation. I am contemplating extending my Whole30 to Whole45 or possibly even Whole60. I am not feeling the results I want inside and not achieving the physical results outside. I know it's not about weight loss, but let's get real people - of course I want to look better. This also means I need to start going to the gym. Something that I am going to add to my routine 1 September... So today may have been a low point in my program, but there is always tomorrow, which just happens to be my halfway point!! That is if I decide to only stick to 30 days. Just gotta push through it!